It was a big shock to me when I lost my grandfather, we were really close and understood each other to a special degree. I then lost my grandmother while touring. She had been fighting cancer but she was so strong that it came as a shock to me when she left. I did not manage to take care of the grief and feelings while on the tour so they just moved further and further away from me. It was then by a pure coincidence that I was staying at the same hotel in Seattle where had gotten the news that she had died exactly one year earlier that those feelings kicked back. I realized that I had been numb for a year and at that moment I started to acknowledge that she was gone. I think I actually finished that process with Hourglass.